Age 17
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Pieter see if I did it.. news
Update: On Thursday
October 7, I was making excuess because I was scared. I still feel
unconfortable about sitting in the parking lot. I pray to God that she
parks on the street like last friday, but I doubt it. My mother is
going on vacation so I would beable to use her car. That may make me
bold enough to park in the lot at 4:30. Since I wasn't going to kill
her today I wanted to get the exact time she leaves, so I can minimize
the time I would have to park there. I went around and around doing my
best not to get noticed.
I saw her, I saw her, I saw her. At
4:47pm Thursday she was at a red light near the office and I came in
from the side. She didn't notice me I don't think. She looked
wonderful, like seeing God herself. I think I might have seen her
before on a bike and felt nothing because I wasnt sure if it was her. I
may be mistaking these feelings of euphoria for love, but who knows. It
maybe that because I only see her in my dreams. When I see her in real
life; I feel like my dreams mix with reality. Why didn't I do anything?
It was really fast I didn't have time to process what was happening,
also I can't just 'hang around' she must Never see me there.
**Update:
Wasn't there Monday, but she was there Tuesday. I think that maybe she
is still at college. And her job at Bendar's office is a 'work-study'
of some sort. Which would explain why she is only there at certain
times. She wasn't parked on the street this time which is really bad.
Perhaps she is becoming a dentist.
**Update: She parks on the
street nearby.. how perfect. Was there at 4pm, not there at 4:40pm.
I'll lay in wait across the street further down at 4pm.. Monday? When
she gets in I'll drive up to her car blocking her in, window to window
I'll shoot her with my glock. I saw a college sticker on her car, but
couldn't read it. It would have been nice to finally know where she
was, but oh well.
**Update: On Thursday September 30, 1999 at
4pm, she was there. Plate number xxx-xxx, it was such a rush zero fear,
but I had my gun and still didn't go in. I pray to God that I won't
have any fear when I go there. But why wasn't she there before? Why was
she only there so late? If I never see her there again it's not a total
loss, I now know that she IS at home.
**Update: Tick Tock. She
might not be there, she must. I wish I could have killed her in
Highschool, so easy. No point in waiting I can find out no more, and
employment won't be any better, no car, no home, all these can be
unavailable.
**Update: I'm starting to calm down from
yesterday. The car wasn't hidden when I went down the street today, so
I think it might not be hers. I am going in the office tomorrow, but
I'm afraid that if I calm down too much fear might over take me.
Knowing she was there was so important to prevent that. I wish NH
allowed you to get plate numbers from SS numbers.. Shaheen you Bitch
governer.
**Update: Fuck Fuck Fuck.. no car from ????????
drive was there again. And the car in the lot that I thought could be
hers .. had an old fat guy driving it. Why isn't she there Why Why Why!
I am becoming increasingly agitated, when ever I scream, "Fuck Fuck" at
the top of my lungs I do it in the car on the highway windows rolled
up, but today I did it on main street and everyone heard me. In the
last 4 years I have had 3 or 4 dreams about Amy, but in the last month
I've dreamt about her every single night. The last dream I had Amy was
pregnant, so I stabed the fetus through her, then cut her throat down
to the bone, and broke her neck with my hand. She is either at Bednar's
and not at home or at home and not at Bednar's.
**Update: The
plate numbers didnt match the one at bendar's office. A small part of
me now believes that it was her and the car will never appear at
Bendar's office, But it's a Small part. I had wanted to check for the
cars during Hurricain Floyd, because the rain would make them less
likely to hide her car, but i fell asleep before 3am. Today it was
raining again and guess what Tim's truck wasn't moved on the street and
a third car was there P#xxx-xxx. I am a paranoid person, is it her car?
is she just visiting and the car never in the garage? will the car be
at work?
**Update: Ok here's what is happening, I had drove
down her street and saw Tim's truck, Helen's sedan P#xxx-xxx, and
another sedan further back. I didnt get out of the car and couldn't
read the plate at all. This time when I went there I got out of the car
to get a better look, but I suspect Amy's car is in the garage. A few
weeks ago I thought I saw her. I never do this, but I followed the
viehicle and took down the plate number. I thought the likely hood that
it was accually her to be slim, so I tucked the number away and forgot
about it. But today I saw that one of the cars at Bednar's office had a
simular plate number. If the numbers match that will be all I need. If
not I'll have to go to Woodbury and wait for her car to be visable.
**Update:
I dont know if I can do this her car is hidden at ??????? Drive I
think. I'm so paranoid I called them to see the hours and I don't
know.. Grrr God I hate this. Those fucking cops I wish her job was
easier for me. And I so wish that I knew her plate number. I'm not sure
how I'll feel when and if I see her, will I not care or will I freak
out. I hope I freak out, I dont want this to be a so so thing. And what
about numbers, I want to kill as many people as possible, but I also
want to consentrate on her and relish her death, make her suffer...
**Update:
For the past week I had been crushed. I planned to go to NHS for the
mass murder but I found that I started crying and screaming. Should I
wait until Christmas Eve to kill her instead of NHS? I imagined what it
would be like to know where she worked, a wonderful feeling, a
'non-reality' thing like having a gun in Algebra class to shoot her.
Docusearch pulled through (amazingly) its like a dream. She still lives
at home I think, but the Blazer is gone. A sedan and a truck were
parked there, didnt check the plate numbers. Now I'm worried to go, if
anyones sees me it could risk my plan. I swear to God that I better be
able to do this.