I always have a plan whether it be killing Amy, killing Owen, or going on a rampage. Each plan takes a very long time to execute, because i need opportunaty to have access to the person and money to buy the right equipment. One of the things i regret most is that I was so scared to go down Woodbury Drive and lost the abilty to montior her behavor.

I attempted to kill Owen on numerous occations: I bought that Rem700 to snipe him from his backyard. I was Pulled over by the Hollis cops and chickened out. I then bought that Marlin to kill him at his dorm room, I drove to UNH four times and once got right to his door, but chickened out again. Then more recently I went there with my Glock to shoot him, failed again (lucky for me because I found out later that the gun would have jammed on the hollow point bullets). I bought the AR-15s because they looked cool =) The seaches for her employment were fruitless, I suspect because she is still in school or whatever. I could have killed her during the summer, but I was still on Plan Owen, waiting for the semester to start (see whats happening, I'm wasting time because I can't find one way to execute my vengence upon the world)

I could possibly wait until Chrismas to torch her house and have a high probility of her being there, but cigarettes are so damn expensive and im real stressed about DWC.

Plan: Mass Murder; Subplan: NHS

I'm trying to remember when lunch starts, 10:05 i think, I believe 10:20 would be a good time for the attack. I plan to start shooting people in the courtyard as fast as i can. reload, I am told that two Nashua Police officers will be in the school (this is why i need a vest). If those cops don't blow my brains out, I figure I'll have one minute before the cavalry comes, the Nashua SWAT team won't be needed. Hopefully ill get to the second clip, if so ill go for head shots head shots head shots! they are a MUST for a high body count.

So.. you believe I'm just a copycat? Damn right

One of my favorite things in life is watching CNN and have those words come on, "CNN BREAKING NEWS" those heliocopter shots of people running, the SWAT team converging the scene guns drawn. Not as good as the Amy death high, but still quite enjoyable. Admit-it you love it too, you think its horrible but you still watch it don't you? Why would you need to watch it? 30,000 die in the USA every year, be worried about that instead, if your so anti-violence.

Some less well known ways i enjoyed mass murder is over the internet. If I am successful I will be incuded on one of my favorite websites Mayhem.net

Doing this would be the ultimate act of terrorism, because everyone fears this sort of thing, even though I'm not a student (that fact makes Plan NHS really stupid). I dont want to do this anyway, I want to get vengence on all people assosiated with Amy and me, thats why I'm angry(?) and the only reason I feel I need to kill.