The Nashua Police Department

There have been several times I have encountered them. Some instances may be missing from my website, because I dont think I will ever finish this (it does get boring after a while). This area is not to tell you the facts of them, but rather the mood and feeling of the NPD and myself. For Sgt. Lyall Smith it was a stalking case, Love Obsession Stalking is more rare than Simple Obsession so I guess this case was not typical. I Was stalking her in high school, but after school? Not really, the CVS pictures were only by accident. And the time I was stuck on her street I was more scared than her (no one accually knows this of course) and I only went a few times.

There are two things with me and the NPD: the War of the ability to murder, and the simpathy for me (at times one thing will dominate the other). I have always considered it War, same with people from the class of '97, for some reason they believe they have the right to gloat when they think they have won. Do they have a personal relationship with me? I couldn't care less about them, I never gloat at victories (I know I know.. 'victories'? work with me here). Like Sgt. Smith saying "your welcome" at CVS, and one time when they had thwarted my attempt at buying guns a police cruiser had flashed its blue lights for a second to boast.. boast? boast what? When I sued the police and lost badly.. the police officer said to the lawyer "great defence" more of a joke though.

What they didn't know in the courtroom was that I was starting to do what I always do now.. Over Act. Acting. I was defeated, but only in the courtroom so I played the part like this was the End of it. When I was pulled over by the police near Amy's house the officer was angry and I felt bad, but I over expressed my emotion to make him feel that he was in control. The police saw me working at 7-11, when they talked to me about a drunk driver they of course were really checking on me, to see what I was thinking. I acted perfectly - friendly and assertive like I was totally over Amy.

Another thing that they did was park 20 police cruisers on my street to show that they mean business, after all I could still legally buy guns. But I already know this is serious, that only served to make me as careful as possible. For me to attempt anything there would have to be a 100% chance of success, because I will never go to prison and dying for nothing sucks. As of today I have controled and manipulated the police almost perfectly (I am still the only one in Nashua that gets pulled over for headlight violations). The police I think are just keeping an eye on me, though they 'know' I'm not going to do anything. Amy just wants to make sure that I am out of her life from now on i.e. the garage thing.

This may have even worked too well (a good thing) I'm starting to get a little simpathy from them again like when I was arrested and was crying histarically *sniff* *sniff* =( One time when I got pulled over the cop said that there are people that care about me. That was very sweet and nice and I am receptive to it, But that still doesn't change anything.

**notice how my mood has changed here from my perivous rant, thats me Mr. Moody.